hmmmmm.... just thinking

Lyrics:
[Chorus - Jason Mraz]
Hey oh, never let go of me (Never let go)
Hold tight, it’s gonna get hard to breathe (Hold tight, hold tight)
Never never let you drown (never), even if we’re going down (Going down)
Hey oh, never let go of me
When I’m sinking

[Travie]
Loose lips sink ships that’s what someone told me
But this boat will stay afloat for as long as you hold me
We been through rough water anytime it was tougher
But the fact I came back to remind you I love ya
And if that’s not enough, well I can one up ya
I pinky promise touch thumbs I’ll never make you suffer
And all I ask in return is some reciprocation
I’ll be your oxygen when you’re running out of patience

So take a deep breath, and hold it tight
My heart is yours just reassure me that you’ll hold it right
Don’t be offended, I’m just the cautious type
To always be around and hold you down and never under, like

[Chorus]
Hey oh, never let go of me (Never let go)
Hold tight, it’s gonna get hard to breathe (Hold tight, hold tight)
Never never let you drown (never), even if we’re going down (Going down)
Hey oh, never let go of me
When I’m sinking

Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh
Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh

This is my message in a bottle, I hope that you receive it
If it washes up at your feet then open it and read it
To whom it may concern, insert your name here
It’s destiny that we were both born in the same year
Three months apart, but on the same sphere
Staring at the sun, inhaling the same air
This type of love we got, they’ll never get it
I’ll be the Leo DiCaprio to your Kate Winslet
Sometimes I panic but I never take it for granted
I’ll hold you ‘til my lips turn blue like Jack in Titanic
And if I lose my grip, then just promise me this
You’ll keep my love in a locket and always rock it, like

[Chorus]
Hey oh, never let go of me (Never let go)
Hold tight, it’s gonna get hard to breathe (Hold tight, hold tight)
Never never let you drown (never), even if we’re going down (Going down)
Hey oh, never let go of me
When I’m sinking

[Middle 8]
There’s times where like
We find it hard
To hold on to something
That was never meant to be held onto
But you let it go
If it comes back it was meant to be
If not, just let it be
C’mon

[Chorus]
Hey oh, never let go of me (Never let go)
Hold tight, it’s gonna get hard to breathe (Hold tight, hold tight)
Never never let you drown (never), even if we’re going down (Going down)
Hey oh, never let go of me
When I’m sinking

LOVE

So Love has been on mind. A heart break of only a month now. IT makes me wonder, how can you sing a love song, if you don't love either? Your soul mate, yes i believe in love at first sight, should want to share everything and always want to be at your side. You can't live with out that other half of your heart. When you always look behind you, you should always see them getting ready to catch you or have this amazing smile you love to wake up in the morning. That amazing feeling you get when you barely touch each other. Love is honestly you only your interpretation. Everybody has different experiences. Have your own experience and find your own king or queen.  IT doesn't matter how you meet. :) It could be on A website or just in LifE. EXpress to everybody in the world for you love them more than that. I hope I found him. Just keep your head up, even though you have your heart broken and you can't fit back together cuz it doesn't break even. When he or she, your soulmate, comes around they will heal it forever.

FOREVER&ALWAYS yours. <3
I hope you find my secret.

And you will end up with thisss ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^!!!!!

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My Fear

The scary thing about life is your own fear. Like your 16 and when you find out that your pregnant, or when you get pulled over for a killing someone or speeding. Spider, bugs, germs. Everything you see as a hazard, you stay a distance from them.
My fear is what people think about me. Ever since I was little, my father treated me like a little boy. SPORTS! SPORTS! SPORTS! I wasn't afraid of anything. I would play football, basketball, any kinda sport out their that guys played during break. They were afraid of me. I didn't understand.  No guys wanted to date me or nothing.. I was to masculine and guys just wanted someone who was pretty, do anything for them. Blahh, blahhh, blahhh, blahh!!!
So during the summer, I asked my mother to help me with a make over. The day I got back from summer, the guy that rejected me, came up to me and told me that I was hot!
After the first semester, I found out that guys were jerks anyways, I would rather just knock them out on the field. Don't change who you are!
I am not a groupy, I love sitting alone and reading my book. Anti-Social you may call it. I just feel safe this way.

day 2 of summer

So complaining all yesterday about how this is going to be a long summer and how boaring my last summer was going to be.... My mother decided to me to my little sister 's school and help her with her last final. Which it contained painting a shed for the sports program. So I go to the school and my lovely sister would not allow me to paint on the stupid shed at all. Instead I was allowed to sand paper the poles. That took about fifteen mins, and she took up about two more hours. It was still boaring.
Than drama started with how my father has not sent the child support in three weeks. And how broke we were. How he is ruining our lives and all that stupid shit. I am with sitting in the back yard reading the Poison Wood Bible. Watching my Bunny running around.
The most exciting thing that happened is when Matthew stopped by to have some lemonade with him. We started planning on our trip to the water park. And how close our two years is going to be. I love that boy.

June 9, 2013

So the first couple days of summer have really sucked. Well not totally. A lot of my plans have been made last minute. It tends to be worth it though. It is my real last summer and I want it to be perfect. Yet, nothing is perfect.
Matthew took me on our first date. Went bowling and to boomers. Got some ice cream as well. Best thing of all, NO PARENTS! No one to watch over our moves and everything. I  honestly felt something came out of it. Like we are closer together. That reminds me, he keeps bringing up marriage and moving in after graduation. That is a little scary. I don't think I am ready for that. He wants me to give up softball, so I can be a mother.
Yea, I would love to be a mother and all, but after two years of college. I would have a back up plan. I want to learn something new on my own. Hmmmm.............